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I'm Amy. I'm growing up. And this is my past, present, and future.
I know you'll come in the night like a thief.
But I’ve had some time alone to hone my lying technique.
I know you think that I’m someone you can trust.
But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up.
So do you think that we could work out a psalm?
So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try.
I know you'll come for the people like me.
But we all got wood and nails,
And talk dirt at hating factories.
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My name is Amy. I'm a Gemini. I'm 25 years old. I'm a struggling artist, and an overly opinionated martyr of my beliefs. My past experiences, no matter how petty or dramatic they were, molded me into who I am today. I'm still changing every day.
I'm an artist. I love to draw and make things in photoshop [such as this blogger layout]. I also love music; I dabble in piano a little bit. I only know how to play other songs, of course. Nothing original. I like to write as well. Pretty much anything that involves the arts is something I enjoy doing. It gets me through the day and gives me a chance to express myself.
I have many friends who have come and gone, some who are even enemies now. Regardless, they've taught me a lot. I've learned to be more humble, tolerant, and kind, but also I've learned things like never to trust anyone completely off the bat, and to usually expect the worst. I'm generally pretty pessimistic and I think irrationally, but that's a nasty habit I'm trying to break. My intentions are good. That's something I must always remind myself and everyone else of. I have anxiety but I'm learning to control it better every day. This time a year ago it was impossible for me to socialize, but nowadays it's easier. Time mends everything.
I'm not really good at these self-describing things anymore. If you want to know me, ask me yourself. :3
Tuesday, January 25, 2022, 7:47 PM
One year later. Looking back on 2020 and 2021
It's been over a year since my last entry. That also means it's been one year at my new job. It's been great, I have absolutely no complaints about the job. I've also worked at home for the majority of that time, so yeah, it can't really get any better than that.
I noticed that I only made 2 entries in 2020 and they were both in December. I'm kind of surprised I didn't write more. A lot happened in 2020. I didn't even mention the pandemic or anything. I should really utilize this blog more, it's always helped me work through my thoughts and feelings. I almost forgot the e-mail I use for this which really would have sucked.
I'm shocked I never mentioned the pandemic, but yeah, since the beginning of 2020 there has been a pandemic. Covid-19. At this point, it just feels like a normal part of life. It's only been 2 years, but it feels like a lifetime. Pre-pandemic life seems weird now. I'll see a video of a concert or large gathering from before covid and just automatically think, "NO ONE IS WEARING A MASK". After avoiding it all this time, Daniel and I got it over Christmas. It sucked. We're okay now though.
Ugh, I want to write more but I'm so tired. But I also don't want to leave this in my drafts for months. I'm just gonna publish this. I'll write more soon.
