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I'm Amy. I'm growing up. And this is my past, present, and future.
I know you'll come in the night like a thief.
But I’ve had some time alone to hone my lying technique.
I know you think that I’m someone you can trust.
But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up.
So do you think that we could work out a psalm?
So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try.
I know you'll come for the people like me.
But we all got wood and nails,
And talk dirt at hating factories.
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My name is Amy. I'm a Gemini. I'm 25 years old. I'm a struggling artist, and an overly opinionated martyr of my beliefs. My past experiences, no matter how petty or dramatic they were, molded me into who I am today. I'm still changing every day.
I'm an artist. I love to draw and make things in photoshop [such as this blogger layout]. I also love music; I dabble in piano a little bit. I only know how to play other songs, of course. Nothing original. I like to write as well. Pretty much anything that involves the arts is something I enjoy doing. It gets me through the day and gives me a chance to express myself.
I have many friends who have come and gone, some who are even enemies now. Regardless, they've taught me a lot. I've learned to be more humble, tolerant, and kind, but also I've learned things like never to trust anyone completely off the bat, and to usually expect the worst. I'm generally pretty pessimistic and I think irrationally, but that's a nasty habit I'm trying to break. My intentions are good. That's something I must always remind myself and everyone else of. I have anxiety but I'm learning to control it better every day. This time a year ago it was impossible for me to socialize, but nowadays it's easier. Time mends everything.
I'm not really good at these self-describing things anymore. If you want to know me, ask me yourself. :3
Sunday, August 19, 2012, 12:23 AM
I've fallen down so low
Thinking and thinking and thinking. That seems to be what this summer has been all about. Thinking and regretting. I've caused myself to be stuck in a bad position that will be really tough to get out of. However, I've started to formulate a plan.
Step 1: get a job. I'm going to go to the Sonic on Houston Levee tomorrow and HOPEFULLY I'll be able to start working there until I can find a real job. That will solve my money problem and my stuck-at-home-all-day problem. I was going to wait until the scabies was over but it's taking too long so I'm going for it anyways.
Step 2: learn to drive and get a license. Brandon has been taking me driving whenever we hang out so I'm learning pretty quickly. I'm gonna study the books soon as well, get my permit, and then get my license. That will help solve my social problems.
Step 3: SAVE SAVE SAVE and get my transcript and go to college. I've got to work work work and save save save so that when it's time for me to go to college I'm ready.
Step 4: get a full-time big girl job. Unfortunately I haven't thought this step over very well.
Step 5: GET A CAR, FIND A ROOMMATE AND MOVE OUT! This will be the final step. I'm hoping I'll be at this step within the next two years.
Now I'm gonna rant about stuff.
I talked to Cody today. Yeah, "talk" and "Cody" are in the SAME FREAKING SENTENCE. He didn't say much. His excuse was pathetic. "I just didn't see it working out." WHAT?? WHAT?!?!? It doesn't matter, though. I said what I wanted to say and I feel so much better. Now I feel apathetic about him. I realized that he just has way too much baggage and I'm better off without someone like that in my life. I feel sorry for him. But I'll still never forgive him for what he did. I can't ever associate with that guy again. lol
I think John has lost interest, as well. What a waste. It's my loss, though. I shouldn't have taken him for granted. I don't even know why I'm speaking so highly of him considering the way he talks to me sometimes, but I just see him as godly. <3
