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I'm Amy. I'm growing up. And this is my past, present, and future.
I know you'll come in the night like a thief.
But I’ve had some time alone to hone my lying technique.
I know you think that I’m someone you can trust.
But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up.
So do you think that we could work out a psalm?
So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try.
I know you'll come for the people like me.
But we all got wood and nails,
And talk dirt at hating factories.
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My name is Amy. I'm a Gemini. I'm 25 years old. I'm a struggling artist, and an overly opinionated martyr of my beliefs. My past experiences, no matter how petty or dramatic they were, molded me into who I am today. I'm still changing every day.
I'm an artist. I love to draw and make things in photoshop [such as this blogger layout]. I also love music; I dabble in piano a little bit. I only know how to play other songs, of course. Nothing original. I like to write as well. Pretty much anything that involves the arts is something I enjoy doing. It gets me through the day and gives me a chance to express myself.
I have many friends who have come and gone, some who are even enemies now. Regardless, they've taught me a lot. I've learned to be more humble, tolerant, and kind, but also I've learned things like never to trust anyone completely off the bat, and to usually expect the worst. I'm generally pretty pessimistic and I think irrationally, but that's a nasty habit I'm trying to break. My intentions are good. That's something I must always remind myself and everyone else of. I have anxiety but I'm learning to control it better every day. This time a year ago it was impossible for me to socialize, but nowadays it's easier. Time mends everything.
I'm not really good at these self-describing things anymore. If you want to know me, ask me yourself. :3
Friday, April 27, 2012, 1:45 PM
Something I've done that I can't outrun
Dear John,
I don't blame you for anything. You simply did what any other man would have done. It's different from your point of view than it is anyone else's. I wouldn't trade you for anything quite frankly, so everyone that is giving you a hard time can fuck off. You're a great person and I'm still going to be there for you every step of the way, even if I'm getting beaten down with sticks along the way. I'll make up for all the shitty people that don't know how to be a real friend, and I'll be here until you tell me you don't want me here. As long as you are happy, and you know that people DO care about you. Even after being in a submarine for years and wondering if you're remembered I'll be here to welcome you home. I got myself into this and I will get myself out of this. You just keep doing you. Forget what everyone is saying.
