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I'm Amy. I'm growing up. And this is my past, present, and future.
I know you'll come in the night like a thief.
But I’ve had some time alone to hone my lying technique.
I know you think that I’m someone you can trust.
But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up.
So do you think that we could work out a psalm?
So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try.
I know you'll come for the people like me.
But we all got wood and nails,
And talk dirt at hating factories.
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My name is Amy. I'm a Gemini. I'm 25 years old. I'm a struggling artist, and an overly opinionated martyr of my beliefs. My past experiences, no matter how petty or dramatic they were, molded me into who I am today. I'm still changing every day.
I'm an artist. I love to draw and make things in photoshop [such as this blogger layout]. I also love music; I dabble in piano a little bit. I only know how to play other songs, of course. Nothing original. I like to write as well. Pretty much anything that involves the arts is something I enjoy doing. It gets me through the day and gives me a chance to express myself.
I have many friends who have come and gone, some who are even enemies now. Regardless, they've taught me a lot. I've learned to be more humble, tolerant, and kind, but also I've learned things like never to trust anyone completely off the bat, and to usually expect the worst. I'm generally pretty pessimistic and I think irrationally, but that's a nasty habit I'm trying to break. My intentions are good. That's something I must always remind myself and everyone else of. I have anxiety but I'm learning to control it better every day. This time a year ago it was impossible for me to socialize, but nowadays it's easier. Time mends everything.
I'm not really good at these self-describing things anymore. If you want to know me, ask me yourself. :3
Friday, August 19, 2011, 11:11 PM
Fuck all that shit
I'm gonna start writing about everything in my blog now. It's not like anyone reads it besides like one or two people occasionally, anyways.
Hai I'm Amy. I smoke pot. Does it change my attitude? No. Does it make me act goofy and do dumb things? No. Does it make me cough a lot like a smoker? No. Does it make it harder for me to do physical labor/run? No. Did it perhaps benefit me? Actually, yes. It calmed me down and got rid of my constant emotional distress. It kind of helped me mature. Seeing life through what seems like completely different eyes, really changes someone. lol.
But it changed me for the better, so fuck off. Nothing really changed except I'm not psycho and overreactive anymore, isn't that kind of a good thing? You can't criticize me unless it harmed me in some way. So gtfo. Anyways..
Phillip stole something from Rocko right in front of my eyes. Right. In. Front. Of. My. Eyes. It was so obvious and I ended up being right, but Phillip is just a fucking selfish little puss. I still want to kick his ass. I could, too. Only physical practice he gets is sitting on his ass and being a lifeguard. How he stays skinny and muscular, I don't know. lol. he's never had a /real/ job.
Speaking of jobs....
Today at work my boss, Cindy, yelled out, "Which fountain is closing tonight?" I yelled back, "I am!" cause I was scheduled to work til close.. obviously lol
And she says, "Alright. Just wanted to know who I got. I'm kind of glad it's you." I felt so accomplished and happy lol. I love being liked by my bosses and coworkers. Today, I was the "senior" fountain, by Eric's words lol. All the other girls there were newbies. then, it was just me and a girl who was on her FIRST DAY. lol. I tried to teach her how to mix icecream and in the end I ended up doing it because she wouldn't take the cup or try to put the sleeve on it. So frustrating ugh.
I got my paycheck. It had 36 hours on it, and $230. I always get like $30+ of taxes taken out of my checks. Ridonkulous. Without taxes I would have made $263. But oh bby on tax return day <3
I always get Mountain Blast Powerade with raspberry in it to take home from work, but I never drink even half of it.... It's so powerful.
