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I'm Amy. I'm growing up. And this is my past, present, and future.
I know you'll come in the night like a thief.
But I’ve had some time alone to hone my lying technique.
I know you think that I’m someone you can trust.
But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up.
So do you think that we could work out a psalm?
So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try.
I know you'll come for the people like me.
But we all got wood and nails,
And talk dirt at hating factories.
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My name is Amy. I'm a Gemini. I'm 25 years old. I'm a struggling artist, and an overly opinionated martyr of my beliefs. My past experiences, no matter how petty or dramatic they were, molded me into who I am today. I'm still changing every day.
I'm an artist. I love to draw and make things in photoshop [such as this blogger layout]. I also love music; I dabble in piano a little bit. I only know how to play other songs, of course. Nothing original. I like to write as well. Pretty much anything that involves the arts is something I enjoy doing. It gets me through the day and gives me a chance to express myself.
I have many friends who have come and gone, some who are even enemies now. Regardless, they've taught me a lot. I've learned to be more humble, tolerant, and kind, but also I've learned things like never to trust anyone completely off the bat, and to usually expect the worst. I'm generally pretty pessimistic and I think irrationally, but that's a nasty habit I'm trying to break. My intentions are good. That's something I must always remind myself and everyone else of. I have anxiety but I'm learning to control it better every day. This time a year ago it was impossible for me to socialize, but nowadays it's easier. Time mends everything.
I'm not really good at these self-describing things anymore. If you want to know me, ask me yourself. :3
Monday, February 22, 2010, 7:58 PM
extreme downtime.
I hate routine.
And it's all my life has had lately.
Since I started the 10th grade, my life has hit the biggest downpoint I've ever had. I don't talk to anyone online cause I'm always asleep or watching TV. I talk to my boyfriend on the phone but not much. I text, but I'm getting bored of that too because I always text the same people. I don't even draw hardly ever anymore. I don't see anyone. I go to school all week, do the same exact thing in every class every day, and then at the end of the week, I see Bo, spend a day alone, then repeat. I see Bo more than I see my friends [outside of school that is]. And I see Bo once a week. That's sad. Why don't my friends want anything to do with me?
I need a car, I need to drive, I need to get out of here. Sitting here constantly revolving my life around things that haven't even happened yet isn't a very good way to live as a teenager. My life is SO boring right now. and now, Bo isn't even gonna call me I think -_- Wonderful.
Nothing else to write about really....
