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I'm Amy. I'm growing up. And this is my past, present, and future.

I know you'll come in the night like a thief.
But I’ve had some time alone to hone my lying technique.
I know you think that I’m someone you can trust.
But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up.
So do you think that we could work out a psalm?
So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try.
I know you'll come for the people like me.
But we all got wood and nails,
And talk dirt at hating factories.

My name is Amy. I'm a Gemini. I'm 25 years old. I'm a struggling artist, and an overly opinionated martyr of my beliefs. My past experiences, no matter how petty or dramatic they were, molded me into who I am today. I'm still changing every day.



I'm an artist. I love to draw and make things in photoshop [such as this blogger layout]. I also love music; I dabble in piano a little bit. I only know how to play other songs, of course. Nothing original. I like to write as well. Pretty much anything that involves the arts is something I enjoy doing. It gets me through the day and gives me a chance to express myself.



I have many friends who have come and gone, some who are even enemies now. Regardless, they've taught me a lot. I've learned to be more humble, tolerant, and kind, but also I've learned things like never to trust anyone completely off the bat, and to usually expect the worst. I'm generally pretty pessimistic and I think irrationally, but that's a nasty habit I'm trying to break. My intentions are good. That's something I must always remind myself and everyone else of. I have anxiety but I'm learning to control it better every day. This time a year ago it was impossible for me to socialize, but nowadays it's easier. Time mends everything.



I'm not really good at these self-describing things anymore. If you want to know me, ask me yourself. :3

called hope. I was laying here crying my eyes out for no reason. Then I went to sleep. I didn't dream at all. Didn't have any strange epiphany or anything. but when I woke up, I went to eat, drink, and just sat here. I talked to an old friend, who has been there for me even when I didn't tell him what was wrong. And there was a tone in my boyfriend's voice that things will be normal again soon. I can't explain it. But the way I feel right now, is a way I haven't felt since I was a kid.

To put it simply. Despite all the shit that goes on in my life. all the worry, home life, loneliness, doubt. I'm alive. and thriving. That's the greatest thing I can get right now. Everyone else should feel the same way.
Oh wow. I sound corny.

Anyways. I spent most of my day sleeping today. or playing Wind Waker. I'm really tired even though I've been up for only 3 hours. I think I can finally sleep, with nothing on my heart. It probably won't last long though, so I'm not going to brag. haha. Tomorrow is a B day. Ugh. I HATE my B days. No friends in lunch, study hall, ENGLISH WITH MRS. WOOD OH GOD--

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I FORGOT TO DO MY EXHIBITION WORK FOR MRS. WOOD OSHIIII-
T______T
My partners are going to kill me. lol.

Anyways, I'm tired, I'm gonna chug me some Gatorade and go to bed.

peace

♥ ameh

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