we're sick for the big sun

welcome

I'm Amy. I'm growing up. And this is my past, present, and future.

I know you'll come in the night like a thief.
But I’ve had some time alone to hone my lying technique.
I know you think that I’m someone you can trust.
But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up.
So do you think that we could work out a psalm?
So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try.
I know you'll come for the people like me.
But we all got wood and nails,
And talk dirt at hating factories.

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I'm Amy. I'm seventeen. When I was thirteen years old, I started becoming who I am today. All my experiences in the past molded me into who I am today. Even though they weren't the greatest of times, I don't regret them a single bit.

Anyways, I have a job at Sonic. I make your drinks, icecream, I bag your food and talk to you on the speaker. It's the first job I've ever had. I'm still trying to get used to working at the speed of light, but I think I've gotten it mostly down. I still have trouble with those darn Iced Lattes, because no one ever orders them. Like, ever. I've learned a lot from my job so far.

In the past I've had a lot of close friends and I've lost a lot of close friends. At this point in time there's very few people I can actually call "friend". I'm content with that in every way, shape and form. I'd rather have a handful of close friends than be pretend friends with a bunch of assholes that would only use me to make them look good.

But since I'm not friends with those type of people, I guess I don't make people look good. lolol.

I used to be floatylike, and dream big all the time. Nowadays I'm a very liberal, harsh person. I'm not pessimistic as I used to be, I just see everything as it should be, look at reality, look at common sense before I judge anything. I believe honesty is the most important thing for human relationships. People shouldn't get mad at each other for telling the truth. Would you rather be lied to? I think not. If so, then.. whatever floats your boat, I guess.

I'm about 5 pounds underweight. Not that bad, but some people think I'm sick, or there's something wrong with me. I'm not sick, and there's nothing wrong with me. I love food, I eat a lot but no one believes it. I'm a fast food addict, but I really don't need to be. I love Dr. Pepper more than any other drink out there. However, when I was 15, I got a kidney stone from drinking too much of it and not drinking enough water. Now, I can't drink it as much unless I drink just as much water, too. Lolololol. I fail so much.

I've been in a relationship for 2 years with a boy called Bo. His real name is Ryky. We have adventures together, and take each other on Subway dates. We have wonderful friends, named Zack, Sean, and Tyler. Phillip would also be on that list if he wasn't such a crashy lifeguard dickwad. If he ever changes, he'll be worthy of le forgiveness.

One thing I strongly believe in: If you think alcohol is OK and marijuana isn't, you have life seriously backwards. Do your .edu research, not the stupid ranting faggots who know nothing about it, have never even tried it for themselves to PROVE it decreses memory, or PROVE it kills brain cells, or PROVE if it makes you do stupid shit. I will argue this forever.

I am not a social person. Never have been, don't think I ever will be. Rather than being at a rave or club, I'm a close friend house party kind of person. Call it boring if you want. I've had the time of my life just riding around in Phillip's car with like 3 other people and 13 year old kids hiding in the back, or sitting in Zack's room with everyone listening to music and doing absolutely nothing else.

Coldplay is my muse. I'm in love with their music. Same with Copeland and The Swell Season. There are very few bands I love as much as those 3. Before I was about 10, all I listened to was Backstreet Boys.

Fullmetal Alchemist is the BEST ANIME OF ALL TIME. It taught me so much philosophically and I swear I boohooed through most of this series. The comeback Brotherhood was even better, but I didn't cry. Teared up a couple of times, of course. But no crying. This anime was my childhood. I was unhealthily obsessed. Edward Elric is one piece of smexy. AND I'LL NEVER BE ASHAMED. FMA FOREVER. <3

Another thing I strongly believe in: You only fall into true love once. If you feel strongly for someone, and you can feel it physically, you're infatuated. If you feel nothing at all in your stomach, the sparks gone, but you still know.. That's love.

I'm just basically trying to show you a piece of who I am. Why don't you find out for yourself?